April 9 2013
ESP and friends said good bye to Bekkah today. Although I had very little interaction with
Bekkah, she touched me much more deeply than I realized. I remember her cocking
her head to the side and giving me a smile specifically on two occasions. Funny
how the smallest of things come back to you when you stop and think. It made me want to run home and
hug Katie even closer. It was a nice celebration of Bekkah’s life. It was sad, but it was a celebration. We all took communion at the
end of her celebration service and while we did that a slideshow of Bekkah and her favorite
songs played. I could only smile as we took communion to Justin Bieber’s
song Baby, One Direction’s You Don’t
Know You’re Beautiful. It was perfect.
There was standing room only and so many people got up to share sweet
words about Bekkah. Collin said one of
the most beautiful things I have heard in a long time. Collin would know what
to say in a time like this. He said when Bekkah walked up to Heaven’s gates it
wasn’t St. Peter it was Tyler that greeted her. She ran into his open arms and
they sang Happy Birthday ESP style. We didn’t need to worry about Bekkah
because she wasn’t by herself, Tyler was there. Our kids have a deeper
understanding of God’s plan it seems. They are sad and they cry, but they truly
believe that you go to a better place when it’s over. They are the one’s
cheering us up and holding us up when it is all said and done.
April 15
2013 Thirteen years ago today I married Jake. It has been a happy journey, not
without growth and trials, but with each one I can honestly say that we have
grown closer together. We decided early on that we would fight for our marriage,
even in the rough times. Thankfully the rough times have been few and far
between. Jake has embraced my love of kids and adults with special needs with
an understanding that means more than I could ever express. I embrace the drum
set (now 2 drum sets, counting Katie’s set) that makes our house musical. I
love Jake. I love waking up next to Jake each morning. I love sharing Saturday
morning family snuggle time with Jake and Katie and Sam. I love my life. (deep
sigh of contentment)
Then and Now! Ha! How things are so very different!
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